12.31.2005

New Year's Eve

I suppose it's technically Jan 1st but I'm posting this one under Dec 31 as I haven't been to bed yet so my new year hasn't started, and as it's still Dec 31st somewhere in the world I'm sure I'm fine. LOL
So I had an interesting new year's eve. I spent it at Kar's house with her family, her sister's friend, a few of her friends, a few of her more distant family members and a man and his wife from their church. The night started out all right, we went to Coaldale and got Jer and then us, him and Pam hung out at Kar's house for awhile. I had a bit of a hard time with conversation we had on the way to Coaldale but I thought I could get over it and have a good night, as it was I guess I couldn't. I had a bit of an anxiety attack when a whole bunch of people showed up at the same time to the door, which really bothers me as my meds didn't help stop it... So yeah. I think I'll be switching meds in the new year! I did make it through the evening though with the love and support of my good friends, thanks guys!! And of course Allen's awesome sense of humour certainly helped with my mood. I even got a kiss at midnight! (but not from Allen LOL)

12.30.2005

Spinach Dip

So I'm making some spinach dip for Kar's party tomorrow night, here's the recipe in case it turns out to be any good. LOL

Amby's Spinach Dip (makes one big bowl, enough to fill a pumpernickel bun, the round kind with the middle bowled out)

- 4 cups of sour cream
- 1 cup of mayonnaise
- 2 cups of finely chopped cooked spinach
- 1 packet onion soup mix
- 1 packet roasted garlic salad dressing mix
- 1 packet Italian salad dressing mix

Mix it all together in a bowl and then put in in the pumpernickel loaf, you can serve it warm or cold

You can also add dill to it if you want to... Adds a bit of a different flavour.

12.29.2005

Robotic Dinosaur & 20 Questions

Went to Future Shop yesterday to buy some stuff with my $200 gift card from Mumby. (thanks mumby!) Got me some DVDs, the firefly boxset, TV/VCR combo and a 20 Questions game which is actually quite neat.
But before I tell y'all about that I wanted to tell you about the creepiest toy, even creepier than Furby and Trolls. LOL. It's a robotic dinosaur that they had wandering around by customer service. It growls and things like that but it's a kind of "robo-pet" so it has sensors in it so it doesn't walk into things, but it's programmed to sense where people are, like by detecting sounds so if you're talking loud it wanders over to you and like rubs up against your leg kind of like a puppy, it's uber creepy. LOL
Okay and now about the 20 Questions game, it's pretty creepy too. It's this toy, kind of a game. You think up an item, like any common household item in your head or you can say it out loud so others around you know what it is and then you start the game. It's electronic and it has a screen so it flashes questions across the screen and you can answer "yes", "no" "rarely", "sometimes" and "unknown". The first question it asks is if it is an animal, or a mineral or a vegetable or other or unknown. After that it goes through a series of 20 questions, some more obscure than others and after 20 questions it guesses what you are thinking and 90% of the time it's right! It's so weird... You really wonder how it got to the right answer! If you stump it, it will go to 25 questions and guess again and if it still can't get it, it admits defeat. If it's especially sure of itself it will guess at 15 questions, but generally goes all the way to 20. We've so far stumped in on snow-blower, tweezers, mascara, condom & some body parts, but for the most part it guesses everything! It's so crazy!!

12.28.2005

The People on the Bus Part 2

As Mark and I came home from shopping today we saw the woman on the bus, whose name I think is Joy. She's often on the bus, and by often I mean as often as I go away from downtown she's on the bus. She has a pretty good rapport with the bus driver and spends the bus ride talking with her. (It's usually the same woman.) She often talks about her boyfriend and asks the bus driver about her boyfriend. This seems to be her favourite topic of conversation, now this woman is a bit slow, she has some kind of a mental malady and I often thought this "boyfriend" of hers was made up, not because I didn't think she could get one, simply because people in her mental state often make up friends and relationships that don't exist.
Well lo and behold her boyfriend was on the bus with her today. Nice looking fellow seems to adore her as much as she adores him, he seems to also have some mental malady and he walks with a cane, but he seems like the nicest guy. I've never been so pleased to be proved wrong by someone. I wish them a world of happiness.

12.27.2005

Furby

For Christmas Santa brought me a Furby! You remember Furby? The somewhat "robotic" toy that "learned" English the more you spoke to it. Well they've managed to make a new Furby. This one can do more and say more, although still in a limited languages capacity. It can play games, tell jokes, tell stories, sing songs, dance, eat and tell you how it's doing. The best part is when you no longer want to talk to Furby you tell him to "go to sleep" and he does! LOL



I think they could improve on the design for Furby though. I think they should make "Punk Furby" for adults. Punk Furby would come with bright multi-coloured hair, optional piercings, a cigarette to smoke on a, a liquor bottle to drink from and be wearing a thong, or a leather jacket. He would learn more words and would be especially prone to picking up on swear words or things that you probably wouldn't want repeated like when you make fun of your girlfriend when she's out of the room. It would be hilarious!
They could also make "Corporate Furby" who comes with a briefcase, sports coat and cell phone. He would learn such phrases as "yes sir", "no sir", "I'll have the on your desk by morning", "I'll have my secretary type it up" and so on. He would be a replacement for you when the boss called to talk on the phone when you have better things to do, like play solitaire.

12.26.2005

Christmas Tree Decorating

I finally decorated my Christmas tree today. I know it's a bit late for that, but as my life has been insanely crazy these last few days it's just a miracle it got done at all. It's a very pretty tree. I have shiny snowflakes, shiny balls, fluffy snowflakes, big fuzzy balls, small fuzzy balls, bead garland and some tinsel balls on it. They are all in red, orange, yellow, green, light green, turquoise, blue & purple. It is a very unconventional tree, but very fitting to my personality. LOL I also have disco ball ornaments on my tree and a beautiful angel with a gold halo, wings & harp and a bright pink dress and bright blue robe. It's a very crazy tree. Here's a pic, although it's not as tacky as the picture makes it appear. LOL Maybe I'll try to take a new pic when it's daylight and the flash need not be so bright. LOL

Song of the Week

"It's a Marshmallow World" - Vic Damone
"This Christmas" - Harry Connick Jr.

12.25.2005

Gone for the Holidays

Hey all,
I've gone to Calgary for Christmas, I left on the 22nd. I left kind of haphazardly so sorry for not tell many of you! I'm having a lot of fun here with my two aunties, my two uncles, my granparents and my cousin. We've been shopping a bunch and my auntie & uncle bought me some new luggage as a grad prsent! It's orange and very sexy!! I've also gotten some extra big bath sheets which'll be awesome! I'll be back Christmas night so I'll get caught up with y'all soon after that. Miss you all and wish you a Merry Christmas!!!!
Love,
Amby

p.s. +22.9 on the deck here today!!! I'm basking in the Christmas sun. LOL (not the most stellar pic of me, but Grandma looks pretty so I'll post it anyways, and you can see how bright and sunny it is!!)

12.21.2005

Solstice

Today was winter solstice, it officially happened at 1:35pm EST.
"In astronomy, the solstice is either of the two times a year when the Sun is at its greatest distance from the celestial equator, the great circle on the celestial sphere that is on the same plane as the earth's equator. In the Northern Hemisphere, the winter solstice occurs either December 21 or 22, when the sun shines directly over the tropic of Capricorn; the summer solstice occurs either June 21 or 22, when the sun shines directly over the tropic of Cancer. In the Southern Hemisphere, the winter and summer solstices are reversed."
http://www.factmonster.com/spot/wintersolstice1.html

Today the shortest day of the year. Sunrise was at 8:25am (MST) and sunset was at 4:33pm (MST). 8 hours and 7 minutes of daylight!
"The winter solstice marks the shortest day and the longest night of the year. The sun appears at its lowest point in the sky, and its noontime elevation appears to be the same for several days before and after the solstice. Hence the origin of the word solstice, which comes from Latin solstitium, from sol, "sun" and -stitium, "a stoppage." Following the winter solstice, the days begin to grow longer and the nights shorter.
Don't miss December's solar and lunar eclipses"
http://www.factmonster.com/spot/wintersolstice1.html
http://host1.farmzone.com/inter/tools/moonsun/index.htm
http://www.flickr.com/photos/docsearls/sets/1629346/

12.20.2005

Sick Again

So I'm once again feeling sick to my stomach thanks to my medicine. The worst part is it is a dizziness, nausea combination and it only comes in the morning so of course if I tell anyone about it they automatically ask me if I've overlooked a rather obvious possibility. It hurts my feelings that people think that of me, that they would automatically assume that a) I'm the type of girl who would get pregnant out of wedlock and b) that I would be too stupid to figure out obvious symptoms if I were!! So no one believes me that I'm sick. I know my TL is just angry that I'm wrecking team stats and I know HR thinks I'm making up stories about not being able to see a Dr. 'til the new year. But there's little I can do about either of those things :( I guess the important thing is that I know I'm telling the truth and so do most of my close friends and in the long run I suppose that is all that matters.

12.19.2005

Hugging

Hugs are one of the most important things in the world. They can tell you exactly how someone is feeling by the way they hug you. You can also convey feelings to others by the way you hug them. A hug can be so many things. It can say so many things that can't be expressed by any other means, or can be emphasized through hugs. Comfort and caring, trust, love, compassion, sympathy, all wonderful emotions can be expressed through hugs. I genuinely feel bad for people who don't see the importance of hugging or who are reluctant to hug. Hugs are one of the most wonderful things in this world!!

Song of the Week

"The Cat Carol" - Meryn Cadel
"Baby, It's Cold Outside" - Bebe Newirth & John Lithgow

12.18.2005

Grocery Shopping

I went grocery shopping today, first time I'd been on a serious shop in about a month. I ended up spending $110 which is a lot less than I thought I would need to spend considering I usually consume $200 worth of groceries in a month and I hadn't been to the store in so long. This leads me to believe I forgot a lot of things. LOL

I don't drive (yeah obviously) so when I go on big grocery shops I take my little pull cart with me. It's holds quite a bit of stuff so it's good for just me. Mark came with me today on this particular shop but mostly for company as he needs far less in the way of actual nourishment than me, or so it seems as he lives on Mr. Noodle, Kraft Dinner & rice. I on the other hand need vegetables, milk, juice and the like or I get cranky.

I bought the holiday foods today, the Christmas oranges and eggnog. I forgot to look for candy cane ice cream although I doubt they'll have any as the store is quite small in comparison to others. That also means it's more costly, but I'm paying for convenience and I know it. So I bought all the things I normally buy, same old, same old. I'm sure I could shop in my sleep if I wanted to. I always get the same things and I'm sure they are the same things mum always gets too... Creatures of habit that we are. I often wonder if I were to go to a bigger store if I would be forced to buy new things just because they would be all around me? I also think though if I were in a bigger store I'd spend more money and come home with more junk that wouldn't get eaten before the expiration date. LOL

12.17.2005

Kar Came Home!!

Kar came home yesterday, it was very exciting! I saw her for the first time today at her house after work. Kar is like my best girl friend in the whole world. I missed her so much! She's been away studying English at grad school in NB so it's been a tough semester for me. I'm so happy she's back so I can hang out with her for the next three weeks.

We went to see Narnia tonight, if any of you haven't seen it go! Like right now, like drop whatever you're doing and go to the theatre. LOL. It's just that good. I've seen it twice now and I very well may go see it again. It really captures the spirit of the book and does it justice as a movie, which often doesn't happen when books are made into movies. It also portrays, very well, the symbolism that C.S. Lewis was trying to get across of good vs. evil, heaven, sinners, Jesus, redemption of sin and the like while being entertaining for children.

I sat beside Kar in the theatre and she held my hand throughout the movie (lol and no I'm not gay it's just what we do.) really the only thing that would have made the night better is if my bf was holding my other hand. LOL (and now I sound bi, which I am also not. lol)

Chinook Part Deux

So I finally d/led my digital pics to my computer from my camera to the laptop. I have some good ones of pre and post Chinook so I'm going to put them up.

The first was taken 07/12/05 -42 degrees with windchill


The second was taken 14/12/05 +11 degrees

12.16.2005

Verse of the Day

'Consider how the wild flowers grow. They do not labor or spin. Yet I tell you, not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today, and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, how much more will he clothe you--you of little faith! And do not set your heart on what you will eat or drink; do not worry about it. For the pagan world runs after all such things, and your Father knows that you need them. But seek his kingdom, and these things will be given to you as well. Do not be afraid, little flock, for your Father has been pleased to give you the kingdom.' Luke 12:27-32 TNIV Bible

Christmas Decorations


I got the parcel from my family yesterday from Greyhound but as it was late when my roomie got home I didn't open the "open before Christmas" gifts until today (I needed my roomie to take pictures to send home). Mumby sent me out decorations for a Christmas tree. They are the coolest decorations ever, they are from IKEA and are in these awesome 70's dull rainbow colours. There are balls, snowflakes and shiny balls, big balls and beads. The balls that aren't fuzzy are shiny and some of the snowflakes are shiny and others are fuzzy, shiny like sequins. There is also a wreath made out of the fuzzy balls. It is sooo cool!! I love them, they are so me! My favourite things, bright colours, fuzzy and shiny. LOL
Thanks mum! You rock!! (you too Boo & Hindy lol)

12.15.2005

Christmas Reflections

I just finished watching "Christmas With the Kranks" and it really made me want to cry. It's an adorable movie, for those of you who haven't seen it I would definitely suggest it. It's a classic Christmas miracle movie where everything goes wrong but they are eventually able to overcome it and "save Christmas" for one and all, with a little help from Santa Claus, of course.

I wanted to cry because the daughter of the couple in the film is missing Christmas for the first time in 23 years. Making her my age, this parallel hit a bit too close to home for my liking. Upon completion of the film I of course logged onto the computer and had irrational thoughts of planes, trains and buses and how to get home for Christmas, only to find out (as I knew before logging on) that it's not feasible, time-wise or money-wise. It, in a lot of ways, breaks my heart.

This isn't the first Christmas I missed, but due to a series of unfortunate events, it will be the first in which I don't see them over the holidays and I sincerely hope another event like the last one comes along to bring us together for the holidays as it was for a funeral I saw them.

I just love and miss my family so much, they mean so much to me and Christmas is such a special time of year, my mumby makes it truly special for us with a gorgeous house and a "landing strip" of lights to lead Santa. I hate that I can't be there to celebrate it with them. There Dad & Muk & Thressa and Hindy too and of course Boo & Ty & Mel. I love them all so very much and they are all a huge part of my Christmas with all the traditions I have with each of them.

I'm going to miss pork pie, letters from Santa, stockings, taking an extra long time to eat just to make everyone wait that much longer to open gifts, watching Christmas specials with my family, hearing the Christmas stories with my brother and sister, midnight mass, advent calendars, the go-together gifts my dad always gets for my brother and me and how perfect they always are, Christmas oranges, candy-cane ice cream, eggnog with dad, the gift from Muk that suits my personality so well even though it's never something I would have though of myself. All of it.

I know everything happens for a reason, God doesn't make mistakes and my being here instead of there is no mistake. The hard part is that I'm just not quite sure why yet. I'm not good with patience, God knows that, and the only way I'm going to find out why I'm missing Christmas at home is to have patience and wait and see.

I mean of course I could speculate and I may be right, but there would be little use in trying to figure out God's will, just to accept it is good and perfect and that it will always work out in the end. As best as I can tell there are those here who may need my love and comfort over the holidays more than those at home and I really hope I'm able to offer it to them when they need it and that they will be accepting of me when I offer it. I really, really hope and pray that this is a good Christmas for all my loved ones and that I can be there most for those who need me.

The People on the Bus Part 1

I saw the man who thinks I work at Radio Shack today on the bus. He was heading to the West side as I was on my way home with my parcel from Greyhound. I first met him two Halloween's ago, I was dressed in Radio Shack attire for Halloween and he mistakenly thought I worked there, I tried to explain to him it was a costume, but as he seems a bit slow he didn't really understand the concept so I just went along with his assumptions. He had with him that day a computer tower and was asking me questions about it, which I could surprisingly answer, which just added to his mis-conception I suppose.
Today he asked if I was still at Radio Shack and I told him no, I said I was just going to school now. We conversed a bit, as much as stranger can anyways. It was quite pleasant except that I had my parcel with me and he read off my name and address, I know this because he confirmed both with me. LOL So let's hope he forgets where it is or he may be showing up at my door to get computer help. LOL

12.14.2005

Some more Songs of the Week

Since there are so many good songs on the radio this time of year that aren't on any other I've decided to post some of the ones I particularly enjoyed listening to while working on my paper last night. I may eventually post my all-time favourite Christmas carols, but for now this short list will do:

"December Will be Magic Again" - Kate Bush
"My Grown-up Christmas List" - Kelly Clakrson
"Santa Baby" - D. Jay Bradley
"Minnie & Santa" - Cyndi Lauper
"Santa's Got a Brand New Bag" - SheDaisy
"Chrissy the Christmas Mouse" - Debbie Reynolds & Donald O'Conor
"Baby It's Cold Outside" - Barry Manilow
"Twelve Days of Christmas" - Allan Sherman
"Silent Night" - MercyMe

The End of the Tunnel

Well last night, mor specifically, I suppose, at 7 this morning I finally reached the end of the tunnel. The tunnel called "Fall Semester '05". I'm heading to the school now to hand in my final assignment of my final semester as a BFA/Drama student. Next semester I embark on other lofiter and more un-finishable goals but right now I don't want to think about next semester, or that I'm not going home for Christmas. I just want to relax, hang out with friends, catch up on my reading and my movie watching, kiss some boys (well one boy in particular lol) and try and enjoy my holidays, however short I'm sure they'll seem in three weeks time when I head back. Right now though it's all about the enjoyment! YAY!

12.13.2005

Stewie Quote

So here's another one from Stewie Griffin. Merry Christmas LOL

"Good evening. I am playing the role of Jesus. A man once portrayed on the big screen by Jeffrey Hunter. You may remember him as the actor who was replaced by William Shatner on Star Trek. Apparently Mr. Hunter was good enough to die for our sins but not quite up to the task of seducing green women. Anyhoo, the perennial dictum is to spread goodwill towards all men. The irony of course is that this is contrary to our nature. So why do we do it? Because we are being watched! And so we unselfishly think of others, assured that our good behavior will be rewarded with love and plutonium." - Stewie Griffin "A Very Special Family Guy Freakin' Christmas"

12.12.2005

Song of the Week

"Christmas in New York (Christmas Time is Here)" - Jana

& just for you Kar, the 2nd song of the week:
"Touch Myself" - Blondie

12.11.2005

So Much to be Done

So it's Sunday evening and I'm sitting down, yet again, to try and write my Theory & aesthetics of Video Games final paper. It's due tomorrow. Now it's not for want of ideas that the paper is not already done, it's for lack of knowing the way in which to express myself. I think I have finally decided on a format for the paper, it will have headings and appendixes, etc. I'm not sure if this is an accepted style but it's the one I'm using nonetheless. I think I may have picked too broad a topic to transition easily from one area to another without headings and goodness knows that the day before a huge paper is due, eloquence is not my high point.
Thus I embark, wish me luck.... The only bad things is it's going to be a long night, and all I really want to be doing is cuddling with my boyfriend, not writing a paper. LOL

12.10.2005

a Chinook

So we got a Chinook in today, funny things those. They come in and are very windy but make the world a very warm place. Prior to the Chinook it was -42 with the windchill. (This was around Wednesday) and today it's +10 with winds from the West. How weird eh? It's so true what they say about Lethbridge, if you don't like the weather wait five minutes. LOL

For you non-Albertans out there here's the scientific logic behind a Chinook:

"Chinook winds, often just called chinooks, are a wind pattern observed in midwestern North America, named for the Chinook Indians. In popular myth, Chinook is supposed to mean "snow eater", as a strong Chinook can make a foot of snow all but vanish inside of one day. The snow partially melts, and partially evaporates in the dry wind. The true origin of the name is that "Chinook Wind" in the local argot of the fur trade era meant that the wind came from the direction of the country of the Chinooks (the lower Columbia River, i.e. from across the Rocky Mountains.

Chinook winds have been observed to elevate midwestern winter temperatures, often from below −20°C (−4°F) to as high as 10°C to 20°C (50°F to 68°F), for a few hours or days, at the end of which, the temperatures plummet to their base levels.
One of the most dramatic examples of the chinook winds occurred on January 15, 1972, in Loma, Montana. The temperature rose from −47°C (−54°F) to 9°C (49°F); the greatest temperature change ever recorded during a 24-hour period.

A "Chinook Wind" or simply "a Chinook", mean the reverse on the British Columbia Coast and Puget Sound and-Straits of Juan de Fuca, bringing warm, west southwesterlies - "from the Country of the Chinooks"."

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Chinook_wind

Chinooks in Alberta

"Where chinooks occur most frequently Chinooks are most prevalent over southern Alberta in Canada, especially in a belt from Pincher Creek in the Crowsnest Pass through Lethbridge, getting 30 to 35 chinook days per year on average. Chinooks become less frequent further south in the United States, and chinooks are rare north of Red Deer.

In most recent winters (since the 1980s), chinooks and warmer weather have all but banished winter to just a few spells of sharp cold of one or two weeks, and some midwinter months have averaged high temperatures over 5°C (41°F), similar to the West Coast of British Columbia, where Canada's warmest winters are found.

In southern Alberta, most of the winter can be spent with little or no snow on the ground. Calgary can expect a white Christmas about 59% of the time. Only the West Coast of British Columbia and southern Ontario have fewer white Christmases than southern Alberta.
In Lethbridge, chinook winds can gust in excess of hurricane force (120 km/h or 75 mph). The winds gusts can be strong enough to shatter car windows through air pressure differential. On November 19, 1962, the winds there gusted to 171 km/h (107 mph) in an especially powerful chinook.

In Pincher Creek, the temperature rose by 33°C (60°F) in one hour in 1962. Also, trains have been known to be derailed by chinook winds there. Calgary gets many chinooks as well, but the wind is usually not very strong. In February 1992, Claresholm, Alberta hit 24°C (75°F) — one of Canada's highest February temperatures.

Chinooks versus the Arctic air mass
In mid-winter, the chinook can seem to do battle with the Arctic air mass at times. It is not unheard of for people in Lethbridge to complain of −20°C (−4°F) temperatures while those in Cardston, just 40 minutes down the road, enjoy +10°C (50°F) temperatures in shorts and T-shirts. This clash of temperatures can remain stationary, or move back and forth, in the latter case causing such fluctuations as a warm morning, a bitterly cold afternoon, and a warm evening. A curtain of fog often accompanies the clash between warm to the west and cold to the east.
It has been reported on a local TV historical program that many years ago Cardston once reported a curtain of fog remaining over Main Street for many hours. The west side of town was balmy with melting snow, while the east side of town was bitter cold.
In Calgary, recent winters have seen situations where the airport in the northeast part of the city is reporting around −20°C and the southwest part of the city is sitting at +7°C (45°F).

Chinook arch over Calgary, January 6, 2003


Chinook arch:
One of the most striking features of the chinook is the chinook arch, which is a band of stationary stratus clouds caused by air rippling over the mountains. To the those unfamiliar to the chinook, the chinook arch may look like a threatening storm cloud at times. However, they rarely produce rain or snow. They can also create stunning sunrises and sunsets.

How chinooks occur:
The chinook phenomenon results from the movement of high and low pressure systems over the Rocky Mountains. As the wind moves over and through the mountains, the moisture in the air condenses, warming the air by releasing latent heat. Then, as it moves downhill, the cold air above presses down upon it, resulting in further warming through adiabatic compression.
Quite often, when the West Coast is being hammered by rain, the windward side of the Rockies is being hammered by snow (as the air loses its moisture), and the leeward side of the Rockies in Alberta is basking in a chinook.

Two common cloud patterns seen during this time are:
A chinook arch overhead and/or A bank of clouds obscuring the mountains to the west. It would appear to be an approaching storm, but it does not advance any further east.

The Manyberries chinook:
Often, a chinook is preceded by a "Manyberries chinook" during the end of a cold spell. This southeast wind (named for a small village, now a hamlet, in southeastern Alberta, from where the wind seems to originate) can be fairly strong and cause bitter windchill and blowing snow. The wind will eventually swing around to the southwest and the temperature rises sharply as the real chinook arrives."

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Chinook_wind#Chinooks_in_Alberta

Now if you're really lucky someday I'll tell you about another thing dear to an Albertans heart, the coulee... LOL

12.09.2005

Technology hates me!

So I was working on my AutoCAD assignment today just before class and then throughout class. As class was ending John mentioned that they would probably kick me out of the lab soon as they were commandeering computers to use in the webCT lab. I was the only one who stayed after class today, everyone else got their assignments down before it ended. I feel so stupid! That is beyond the point of the story though, so I left E610 and went to E630 and worked away for another hour or so when the proctor informed me they were closing that lab as well at 5 and my best bet would be the study center (which I am now in.) Upon arriving at the study center I checked my e-mail and then proceeded to open my assignment and continue plugging away at it. Upon opening AutoCAD I was greeted with a message regarding incorrect user profiles and the necessity to re-install the program. I of course freaked out, e-mailed my prof and called IT. They say I may be able to get on and to try again in 25 min, it looks bleak though, if it's not a simple fix all of IT is busy re-arranging computers for exams which means I will not be able to use AutoCAD and a bunch of the labs are closed or on short hours over the weekend!! GAHHHH!!! I'm so frustrated I could scream!

The IVCF Issue

So I read back over what I've posted and I realized I never posted about IVCF, perhaps it's water under the bridge now but as I let the cat out of the bag with my comment of a few days ago I better explain what happened. So here's the story, as best as I can remember it.
So back in late March or perhaps early April I was activities co-ordinator (one of three) for the IVCF (as I had been for the past year and a half) so we are doing elections and the topic of my position comes up at an exec meeting. I say I'm not sure if I'm coming back in the fall or not and it's recorded in the minutes that if I'm back I get my position and if not they're downsizing it to two positions.
So I decided I'm coming back in the fall, I let the IV exec know this and they say okay. Life goes on, a week or so later I'm asked to meet with the presidents, so I go. They tell me that my position has been abolished and they would like to do it with two people next school year and I'm not needed. I find this unfair and un-constitutional so I take it up with our staff worker and most of the exec.... This goes 'round and 'round in circles with me applying (and being denied for) worship co-ordinator fitting in there somewhere. The long and short of it was that by the end of the semester I didn't' have a place on exec in the fall and I didn't even want to go to final exec meeting but I did and they prayed me out as they always do and it was as if I chose to leave and wasn't forced and to this day at least half the exec has no idea what went on. The half that do supported my cause but there was little we could do about it. I eventually got an apology from both presidents and the staff worker and a promise that I would be involved this year in other capacities. (Which didn't happen, or even be attempted at happening by anyone but me until last month.) So whenever I saw certain exec people this year it was very touchy and they very much tried to appease me for fear I'd yell at them in public, or something along those lines. (which I never would have done.)
Oh and the reason they wanted to abolish my position, besides them trying to par down exec, was because I was older than all the other exec people (at 23 I would hardly consider myself old.)
So that's the story of what happened, now the underlying story of what happened goes like this: I am a strong, determined person who doesn't work especially well in teams unless I'm the leader of those teams or under the leadership of a very strong-willed person who can give specific direction as I would do. When I sense weakness in leaders I attack, I stand up for what I believe in and what I think is right or should be done and I don't easily stand down. The two presidents were both weaker individuals who I could very easily over-power when I felt something should be done differently then the way they did it. Similarly the two other activity's people, although good leaders in their own right, weren't as strong willed as me, which meant I led most of the events unless I chose to delegate them out and even then I had my hand in most things going on. I liked to be in the know and events went well with me in charge, but the presidents felt I was bullying the other two into doing things my way and no new ideas were being brought to the table.
The under-underlying story to both of the above is this: I have never been the best model of "Christian" values. I feel that many Christians are hypocrites who think people should do what they say and not what they do. I live my life the best I can and I screw up, frequently, and I know that and God knows that and He forgives me and I'm not afraid to get out there, try new things and sometimes fall on my face. I don't live the best lifestyle and I never have. I live with a guy roommate and before this I lived with my boyfriend, I've cheated on boyfriends, I drink almost every weekend, I party at clubs, I've had pre-marital sex, I've shown up places with hangovers, I've lied, I've cheated, I've snuck around and I'm not afraid to admit to all these things. I'm open to other religions points of views, I make friends with all people, not just Christians, I date non-Christian guys. I wear slutty clothes on occasion, I dye my hair, I get piercings. I've shopped in a sex toy store, I own a bikini and lingerie, I've skipped church because I was too drunk or hung-over to go or because I simply didn't feel like it. In the eyes of many people these things are considered bad and un-Christian and I am not a good candidate to endorse the Christian faith. I don't feel this way, I think I'm a perfect candidate, I know people for who they are, the real people underneath. I can get to know people on a personal level and see where they're coming from, go to where I need to to reach them. The IV, for the most part, has, over the years, become an exec of people born and raised into Christian homes with good Christian parents who taught them good Christian values, who accepted Jesus as a young age and know the word of God inside and out. They have never smoke, drank or would dream of having sex and if they have done any of these things they've repented of it and so are clean of it and would never admit to doing it 'cuz it's in the past.
I will not judge them, I'm merely stating fact, I just don't think it's fair they judged me. I knew for a long time the current exec was tying to find a way of getting rid of me to "spiritually cleanse" IV and get it back to it's pristine bubble that I threatened to break. So good for them, that's their choice, I won't judge, I'll just rant and take comfort in knowing that on judgment day they'll have to explain their actions to God and not to me. :)

12.08.2005

A Cleaning I Shall Go

Today, after weeks of stress and busy-ness I finally decided the time had come to clean up the apartment. This became exceptionally apparent earlier this week when I needed to rearrange the living room/office to accommodate for the heat being turned on as my desk was too close to it ergo my computers were too close to the heat. So Sunday morning at about 2:30am I moved the desk and turned the heat on, but everything else merely got shoved out of the way. So today, instead of going to see Aeon Flux (I might add) I cleaned up the house. My roommate helped which was great, we dusted, cleaned the bathroom, scrubbed the kitchen and put the whole living room/dining room/office back in order, which was no small feat as for the past month or so we haven't had a kitchen table for want of all the things we had burying it (mostly my things...). I also got all my bills, banking and receipts in order. LOL Now if only I can get my papers done I'll be ending the semester on a high note! Oh and I suppose I'll eventually have to get my vacuum back from Micheal and take care of the floors and the pumpkin on the counter should probably go out here soon..... LOL

12.07.2005

Singing in the Atrium

So today the IVCF was singing Christmas carols in the atrium at the University. I'd had the newsletter read to me earlier in the week and I knew that this was happening on Wednesday but I had no real intention of going until I found myself sitting on 5th shooting the breeze with some drama people and the sounds of "Oh Little Town of Bethlehem" came wafting to me down the stairs. I found them irresistible so I wandered upstairs to partake of the carols. It was quite an interesting experience as the sound in the atrium carries remarkably well and to be standing there singing in it knowing everyone can hear you for floors above... It's quite intimidating, but here were all these people doing it anyways.
I guess in a way the Christmas spirit came over me today as I stood there and sang with them, similar to the grinch, and my heart grew three sizes today. LOL I did however decide to repent of my past actions with the IV and make amends so I made a point of talking and being civil and even nice to some of those who shunned me last semester. (can't remember if I posted on this, may have to make that a topic once I've back-read) So perhaps Christmas is a time for friends and caring and loving and even forgiveness... I think I may even participate in some IV events next semester... Imagine that! :P

Bonsai Kittens

An e-mail I received:
This is so terrible. A site that we were able to shut last year has returned We have to try to shut it down again! (www.bonsaikitten.com) A Japanese man in New York breeds and sells kittens that are called BONSAI CATS. That would sound cute, if it weren't kittens that were put into little bottles after being given a muscle relaxant and then locked up for the rest of their lives!! The cats are fed through a straw and have a small tube for their feces. The skeleton of the cat will take on the form of the bottle as the kitten grows. The cats never get the opportunity to move. They are used as original and exclusive souvenirs. These are the latest trends in New York, China, Indonesia and New Zealand. If you think you can handle it, go to this site www.bonsaikitten.com and have a look at the methods being used to put these little kittens into bottles. This petition needs 500 names, so please put your one name on it!!! Copy the text into a new email and put your name on the bottom, then send it to everyone you know! Here's the link: http://www.bonsaikittens.com

A 2nd e-mail regarding the first:
Just so everyone knows, Bonsai Kittens do not exist, nor is this a real website. This has been going around for quite some time and is simply someone's idea of a joke, even if in poor taste. Please check out the following sites, and always check www.snopes.com before forwarding any messages/petitions you believe to be true (such as the Touched by an Angel hoax, and so on). By the way, email petitions are in no way valid. There is no one in any position of power that takes them seriously. You can not cause someone to donate money to any of your favourite charities by how many times one is forwarded, nor is there any way to even track the numerous branches created every time someone forwards such a email to their group of friends. In other words, don't forward petitions. It is also no way to witness to your friends how much you love Jesus, nor does it indicate that you will go to hell if you do not forward to as many people as possible. Someone, somewhere started these things as a sick idea of a joke, so think about that before you go spreading it on. They probably have a great chuckle every time they receive this from someone with a long list of names endorsing their imaginary petition. So instead of signing this petition, try forwarding this or a similar letter, or write your own. Then maybe we can put a stop to these stupid things!http://www.snopes.com/critters/crusader/bonsai.asp
http://tafkac.org/ulz/bonsai.html
http://www.museumofhoaxes.com/pranks/bonsai.html
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Bonsai_Kittens

12.06.2005

First Day in Boots

So today was the first day I deemed it cold enough to actually wear boots out of the house, it was something like -32 with the windchill and after yesterday of still wearing my half-runners that are my preferred footwear once sandal weather is passed I decided boots were my only option. I conceded a bit on this point as I brought flip-flops, or "thongs" for you kiddies of the 80's who don't think "thongs" refers to two pairs of undewear, to school with me and put my boots in my locker. My very stylish boots I might add, courtesy of my Boo, thanks Boo! Props to my peep! LOL Really I can't complain that much as it's already into December and boots haven't been necessary, but I suppose it was bound to happen sooner or later and my ambitious goal of waiting out the semester in half-shoes seems a bit far-fetched now. LOL

Finals

So this year I am very fortunate in that I had no finals as such. That is to say I have no written exams during the exam period. I do however have 3 major assignments all due this week or next. Yikes! The worst part is this just occurred to me this morning that I had so much homework that needed to be completed.
The problem of my monitor has still not resolved itself, unfortunately. I am currently still trying to figure out a reasonable way to hook up a new cable to the old monitor, so in the meantime I find myself working off my laptop and out of the computer labs (which is where I currently am) the only problem is I really don't like the computer labs... I also really don't like using my laptop for any extended amount of time, which is why it is the week my finals are all due and I have none of them completed.
One of them is a series of AutoCAD assignment that I have no choice but to do in the labs as I don't have $1200 lying around to buy a copy of AutoCAD 2006. The second is a play which I thankfully have 2/3 done and it's not due until Monday and the third is a paper, 15 pages 1.5 spacing font 12 due Thursday, although graciously the teacher gave me an extension 'til Monday when I told him the plight of my computer problems.
So thus I find myself in a lab half an hour before my final "Den of the Dorks" class contemplating life and typing a blog about my final papers instead of actually writing them. I know I'll regret this later, but c'est la vive. LOL

12.05.2005

No Place Like Home for the Holidays

So sadly this Christmas I won't be going home. :(
I managed to book the 21-28 off work but there were no available flights during that window so I'll be staying in Alberta this year. I may have the option of going to my aunt & uncle in Calgary's place, but it is small and my family on dad's side is large so I can't expect them to put me up as well. They may though, they often do go out of their way to help me. (which I appreciate.) My friend Kar invited me to her house for Christmas eve and day and I may take her up on it, but I'm not sure just yet. I may find it easier to just work and get paid huge paychecks for my time and make myself feel better about not being home. 'Cuz to really sucks I can't be home.
I also have to decide if I want to bother decorating, it seems like an awful lot of work, especially as I haven't started yet, but it may be nice to have a tree or lights or something so I don't feel so bad about not being at home... But then again it may make me feel worse, well I guess I'll have to decide here soon 'cuz it's only getting closer...

Song of the Week

"I Want a Hippopotamus for Christmas" - Gayla Peevey

Article Found Here

12.04.2005

A Weekend of Plays

So this weekend my Playwriting class had their final "get-together and review each other's plays." We still have one day of class (Wed) but other than that we are done. Our plays are due Dec 12, not in their entirety but five acts of them (15+ pages). I wrote a play about a DJ named Jimmy the Player who basically does that, plays songs, plays people and plays women. The play is about his manipulation of his co-workers, producer and girlfriend over the course of an evening "on the air". It's a one-act play so play time should be around half an hour to forty-five minutes when all is said and done. Right now I'm sitting at 14 pages and about 20-30 minutes of play time (cold read that is.) I'm pretty stoked about the whole thing, it sounds like I wanted it to in my head and my prof seemed to like the premise and the ideas for the ending. Although I have enough written to hand it in un-finished I would really like to get it completed before I hand it in. I just don't think I'd finish it later if I don't now and I feel it has potential as a piece and I'd hate to see it get shoved in a drawer somewhere... But we will see, time restraints and all.
I at least hope to get the final conflict scene written by Wednesday so I can have classmates try it out in cold read and see if it sound right, but again we shall see. One of the major dilemmas I'm having at this point is that I really have a strong start and I don't want it to end weakly, I want it to climax nicely and not have the bad guy win in the end, I want him to learn a lesson, but it not to be a Saturday morning special so to speak. I also want to have appropriate language for the piece and the characters and not have them swear just for the sake of swearing 'cuz I actually really don't like swearing in theatre or in real life (although I know I'm bad for it at times). So we shall see where this goes...
If any of y'all wanna read it just fire me off an e-mail and I'll see what I can do about getting you a copy. :)

12.03.2005

Improv Face-off

So tonight we had our first ever Improv Face-off. It was put on by the Improv club at the University, which as I have mentioned I am the Publicity girl for. It was a huge success!!! YAY! We had 43 people show up which is more than Twoonie Theatre (the other drama club's big semester event) had. I was so stoked!! I was so worried that not a lot of peeps would show and they would blame me for bad publicity for the event, but it was awesome. The Meliorist (the school's newspaper) even put in a blurb about us as a the number one suggestion in the "6 1/2 things to do this week". Which was awesome as we didn't think they'd even mention us.
So thanks to all my buds who showed up, thanks to Nicole for taking pics (now I have something to put on the website for the new year.) Thanks to Charity for running our sound and thanks to everyone who acted in the show! You guys all rocked the Kasbah, seriously it was awesome! The audience laughed during all the scenes and everyone was really on the ball with their one-liners and comedic sketches, good job guys!
For those of you who couldn't make it, shame on you! LOL You missed an awesome show. We had a bunch of team challenges and we played a whole bunch of games, here's a list of some of them: Party Quirks, Ding, Stunt Doubles, Space Jump, Slow Mo Commentary, Movie in a Minute, Sit/Stand/Lie, Pockets, Walkout & Superheroes. (There may be more I'm forgetting) But it was a super show! Our next one is Feb 3 or 4 so mark it on your calendar now so you can all be there!!

12.02.2005

Vote for my friend!!

Hey all,
My buddy Kevin got his blog nominated for the Great Canadian Blog competition, please all go vote for him! His blog is http://kevingpowell.blogspot.com/ and it has been nominated for Best Religious Blog in the Canadian Blog awards. He's made it to round two. If you are so inclined to vote in this round you can do so here http://cba.myblahg.com/

Tentative Timetable:
Saturday December 3rd - Friday December 9th: Round Two voting. Sunday December 11th, 9pm EST: Round Two results will be announced.

Voting Instructions:
***You may vote once per day.***
Note: It's not required that you vote in each category, but you must make all your selections before you submit your vote.

12.01.2005

Starbucks

So an unfortunate thing happened yesterday. I found out the U of L "proudly brews Starbucks Coffee." Now this information in and of itself is far from life altering, and I know you are wondering what the big deal is... well the problem is that because they brew Starbucks coffee they now have Starbucks coffee cups. Which means that when I go to get a cup of tea from the University I have to carry it around in a cup with a Starbucks logo printed "proudly" on the side, another step on the ladder to the take-over of Canada by the likes of corporate America. I don't see why they can't just leave well enough alone and stay the heck out of our country and keep your logo off my tea!

December

In December I will be a baubled, baubled Christmas tree
With soup bowls draped all over me.
Merry once, merry twice, merry chicken soup with rice.

11.30.2005

Violence in Video Games

I was considering violence in relation to video games as I write my final paper for "Theory & Aesthetics of Video Games" and although my paper is not on that particular topic I had some thoughts on it that I would like to express, so I will do so here.

I think that there are an awful lot of violent video games out there, but I don't think they are intrinsically bad. Just because a game is violent doesn't mean there is no point to it, in fact often the point of the game is far from violence, the violence is just a means to the end. War games are by definition violent (generally speaking) but the point is to win the war. Similarly gangster games are violent (like Grand Theft Auto, or Fifty Cent's game) although the story behind these is the portrayal of a lifestyle that is violent so the game has to have violence to be a true representation of the lifestyle. Similarly sports games are often violent in a physical sense as that is the nature of sports, but very few people will argue that sports games violence is bad, but as soon as the violence has a gun or a weapon it becomes violent and bad. Wrestling games are often seen as "bad" for this reason, because there is physical violence that nowadays involves weapons and blood. I'm not saying that all video game violence is acceptable, what I am saying is that it usually has a point that people who criticize it don't take the time to look at.
Another point I'd like to make is that perhaps the violence in games is, on some level, a good thing, again I don't want anyone to think that I am condoning all violence or saying that I don't find some of it excessive and gruesome. In fact some games seem gorey for no reason other than to be gorey, but perhaps that is a better form of violence. I am not by nature a violent person, but I, like everyone else, get angry from time to time and when I am in an angry mood I appreciate the violent games. I can go slay Barney in Doom, create a a wrestler who looks like my friend and kick their butt in WWE or simply go around San Andres shooting up the place and beating the crap out of people completely outside the context of the story of the game. I mean these are just examples of taking out my violence in violent games, I could just as easily create a Sim and drown it in a non-violent game or beat up some elves in Harry Potter or some building in the incredible Hulk. All games have violent aspects, some are just more predominant than in others. I mean really isn't it better that when people are angry they take it out on virtual worlds with fictional characters than going and "busting a cap in someone's knee" in real life? I think perhaps if there are others outlets for violence and anger other than real life it has the potential to make the world a less violent place, in a real world space. I'm not saying if Charles Manson had played video games that perhaps he wouldn't have killed people, but really who knows? He may not have killed so many people if he had San Andres.
I'm also not negating that some violent games give children ideas they never would have had otherwise (like Manhunt that represents a snuff film or Def Jam that represents gang fights) but I don't see how just because we see something on the TV or the computer we feel compelled to go out and do it in real life. Sure some people would, but some people will always be violent, regardless of whether they play video games or not, it's just the nature of man.

11.29.2005

Where did I go?

So I know it's been two long weeks since I actually posted a blog. I'm sorry! I have been writing blogs on my laptop and then just not posting them. LOL.... The reason you ask? Well that's an interesting question..... You see the quest for the soldering iron turned into the quest for the de-soldering braid, the quest for the monitor end, the quest for the monitor cable, the quest for the guy who said he'd fix the monitor, the quest for secondary monitor and finally (and most recently) the quest for sanity. It has been 3 weeks without a monitor, or a proper computer. I've been using my laptop, which for you fully sighted people out there is no big deal, but for me with my limited vision is a huge pain in the butt. I have to run at least a screen magnifier on the laptop, sometimes a speech system as well and it makes using it for anything but note-taking very frustrating and tiresome. (For my msn and mIRC buddies this is also my reasoning for not being online lately.) So needless to say I use my laptop as little as is humanly possible, usually for one class and to check my e-mail occasionally.

Today, however, I ventured to the school early so that I could post a blog and let y'all know that I haven't forgotten about my blog or my blog friends and I'm sorry!! Blame the guy who's supposed to be fixing my monitor, who by the way I am still questing after as he has been MIA since last Thursday! GRRRR!!!

Anyways best wishes to y'all. As soon as I have a computer I'll back-post all the blogs I've written in Word over the past two weeks. :)

11.11.2005

Soldering Iron: A Quest, Part 2

An update on the soldering iron situation, as I know you have all been anxiously awaiting news on this particular issues...
A soldering iron has been found! Oh Happy Day! The monitor can be repaired and I can once again use my computer, which is actually quite excellent as the screen on my laptop is in fact too small for me to comfortably work at. (It is a sad world where a 17" screen is not "big enough") but c'est la vive, this is how God made me.) So it will be an even happier day when my monitor, all 21" of it is fully functional again.
And where did I find this soldering iron? I know you are all curious to know, the answer, as ironic as it may seem is simple, I found it at The Source by Circuit City, what was formerly "radio Shack". Ironically the first place I looked, but due to some bad advice by an ill-advised sales person I was sent on the wild goose chased previously described... Ah well... Life goes on, and now that I have a soldering iron it will hopefully be a better place. LOL

Remembrance Day

Today here in Canada is remembrance Day, I believe the Americans have a similar day called Veterans Day, although I'm not sure if it falls on Nov 11th as well. remembrance day is a time for us to remember those who fought and died during the wars to make Canada the country it is today, a country of freedom.
My Grandpa on my mumby's side fought in World War II. He thankfully, came back from the war, married my nana as a war bride, fathered four children, and lived a long and healthy life until his death a few years ago. During the war he lost half a finger to a meat grinder while he worked in the mess hall. This is his biggest "war wound". He is by far one of the lucky ones. So many young men and women lost so much more during the war, lives, loved ones, their sanity. Mothers losing their sons, Daughters their brothers, Wives their husbands, young women their sweethearts and so forth. Almost every person you meet can tell you a story about someone they knew who was in a war.
My generation is so lucky to have not know war like the previous generations did, to not live in fear, to live in a free country, with freedom of speech and expression. Freedom to be any way we want to be without fear of war looming over our heads, freedom to grow up and raise families without fear.
For this we must remember, today and everyday. We must learn from the past, learn from the mistakes learn from what anger and hatred, miscommunication and misunderstanding can lead to. We must continue to make our world the world these men and women fought for and died for, the world they saw a vision for, a vsion that sustained them through the war, drove them to their cause each day. For them we must remember!


In Flanders Fields
By: Lieutenant Colonel John McCrae, MD (1872-1918) Canadian Army
In Flanders Fields the poppies blow
Between the crosses row on row,
That mark our place; and in the sky
The larks, still bravely singing, fly

Scarce heard amid the guns below.
We are the Dead. Short days ago
We lived, felt dawn, saw sunset glow,
Loved and were loved, and now we lie
In Flanders fields.

Take up our quarrel with the foe:
To you from failing hands we throw
The torch; be yours to hold it high.
If ye break faith with us who die
We shall not sleep, though poppies grow
In Flanders fields.


http://www.arlingtoncemetery.net/flanders.htm